Rolling into my secret with a curious body, I feel even day that I am getting closer to uncovering some inner sourced memories in my body, unsure of where they come from, what they mean. Reaching a heightened state of awareness and sensitivity in the body can sometimes be both exhilarating and totally overwhelming, especially being outside the witness circle. For myself, it provides me with the leverage to move deeply into my own subtle body and explore the natural state that resides under muscle tension, resistance and indeed the emotional body. Working with the spine this week, wringing away tension, potent images have been fluidly emerging, words strung together in syntactical confusion, presenting signposts; spaces for me to fill in the gaps. Metaphysical questions of existence permeate my explorations…what direction is my body going, where did it come from, what has been past on from ‘previous’ lives? How can the body move when a memory emerges - when one senses an event without the color? What is one’s relationship between our memories and / or our lost reel of images and our sensing body and how do they interact? Important and equally confusing questions in need of further explorations. As Johanna Paungger states, ‘Everything in the universe is in motion, nothing is permanent, fixed, unchanging. From all the suns, right down to the smallest cell - everything is born, grows, passes over into maturity and death, only to awake in another life form, another light’. A glimmer of my recent images:
